.Sunday, June 27, 2010 ' 2:22 AM Y
I just got knocked down by a random lil kid running about playing catching...It hurts badly and I can't help it but 2 cry...I did nothing to the kid and just walk away..I'm nt regretting it but it really HURTS!Is there anything that will ease the pain?Crying out for help here!親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Saturday, June 26, 2010 ' 6:23 AM Y
Harlos!Its mi..as always!Anw early in e mornin I gt called bian tai(pervert..but i tink e person mean freak!)by keith..tis was wat tt had happened earlier in e mornin..Mi n keith chat chat till 4+ in e mornin n he say he tired but will pei mi de until i slp but i tink he's 2 tired so he fell aslp @ 4:10am n i was left thr awake...i can't seem 2 slp @ 1st so i tot tt mayb i go down jog jog @ 6+ but b4 tt,i fell aslp somewhr around 4:30-5am..nth wrong..here's wat...i woke up @ 9+ naturally as in w/o e use of alarm clock n soon aft i called mel den keith n he was lyk sayin tt mi bian tai lor...its jus came naturally de..can't help but anw he broke my fren's record as he chat wif mi 4 +/-150 mins(two n a half hours)...round of appulauds 4 hym cos it very hard de lor as talkin on e fone wif mi is very sian de...i oni hyper wen u talk 2 mi live/msn/sms so kudos 2 him!
Den i didnt eat breakfast as i ate it @ 3+ in e mornin..but keith says tt tats supper...den did hwrk...blahblahblah(some random tings)den @ 5+ mi bring my lil sis go down she cycle,i walk...den i played ping-pong...Mi gt improve leh!!!hehes^^ an achievement 4 mi!
Den my mum came 2 call mi n my sis back 4 dinner n nw here i am,writin abt my daily life!hehes!!!aiya...i noe u gettin BORED liao..lax...ah!here's a quote from mi...
Destiny.
It is not a matter of chance,it is a matter of choice;
It is not a thing to be waited for,it is a thing to achieved.
anw enjoy n nitex..mi try 2 slp earlier 2dae as i nidda wake up very early 2moro..bb!
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
. ' 5:45 AM Y
these r jus some random fotos tt i took on some random daez..
Sry 4 some of pics r blur~ Anw tis dog is owned by my mum frens..it was in my hous some dae ago n its back agn...2dae-26/6
And tis was my dinner on another random dae..chicken rice cooked by mum...
Tis is mi takin pics while zhen ling n daniel were writing e speech on another random dae..
Taken wen i wen 2 visit my ah-gong...very random dae..sad memory..@ least he's fine nw...
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Friday, June 25, 2010 ' 4:57 AM Y
Hiies!!!It's mi agn!I noe,I haven been postin 4 long cos I was BUSY n a lil lazy...hehes(: PS lah!Didn't mean it de...In general.I'm fine xcept tt i hav 2 chiong my holidae hwrk...other than tt i tink tt I'm fine...u shd noe wat i mean...(wat i meant was in e pink of health or @ least nt sick!)Anw here's wat i did these few daez but i will oni write wat i rmb cos i gt STM(Short-term Memory) so pls b understandin! Wednesdae~23/6(SUPER BUSY DAE!!!)
-Sad tt i 4gt 2 chat wif keith e nite b4 sooO I end up slpin @ 3+/4..
-Got woke up a few times by my family members so by e tym my alarm rings,I was wide awake
-8:30am-11:30am : meetin up wif my pri sku frens 2 get my birthdae presents!so sweet!!!but tirin as e location 4 meet-ups r different...
-12+ going 2 1:Waitin 4 Kai sin n wen 2 hav lunch... -2+ to 3+ : waitin 4 chen long n l8t wen 2 RP lib wif em' n Ian...
-e rest of e tym till 6 : Doin hwrk,draw cartoons,blahblahblah
Thursdae~24/6 [4 more daez 2 my B'dae!!! [: ]
-woke up @ 11+ so i had my breakfast den(which ,means i didnt eat lunch)
-wen down 2 656 @ 3+ (Wow thx!my fone no batt in 15 mins!!!)
-called desmond n keith 2 pei mi...
-learn table-tennis(fun but tirin...hard 2 learn sia)
-Xie hang came sooO Hiies!
-Did some random tings tt i dun rmb till 9:30pm
-Had dinner wif e 3 of em' n i saw my mum n pup...
-Aft tt dinner which wasn't forcefully eaten(cos my appetite nw very small i dun eat much but -keith told mi 2 finish e rest which i did...C i sooO guai!!! lolz! jk nia...)
-wen da play(damm fun but pain cos my toes hit some hard surface ]: )
-wen home bathe n wen da bed but nt da slp...2 sit on it 2 chat wif keith n he slpt @ 1+ while i slpt @ 2+ cos nobody else i noe slp l8t than him sooO sad!
Todae~25/6: (SUPER SIAN!!!)
-didnt do anyting fun -lazy go down 2 play cos my feet still hurts a lil n i tink i over-stretched(even though i dunno hw.)
-In short...SIAN!!! ]:
BUT gd news..even though BBQ canceled due 2 lil ppl attendin ]: BUT guess wat!? mi,des,keith,xie hang n i dono hu else r goin 2 i dono whr 2 play tis sundae!nice!Ohh ya..i jus realized someting...i haven eat dinner yet cos im 2 tired 2 eat..haix(hope i dun gastric pain)anw im bored!TTM!!!bb..mi goin c wat i cn do..nitex 2 u all hope u cn slp well n hope i will 2...!!!BB!!!
*FYI:6 more daez 2 my B'dae!!!^^
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Friday, June 18, 2010 ' 7:17 AM Y
hi,its mi!im so bored!!!there's lyk nthin 2 do.... ]:anw i didnt do much 2dae...SIAN!ohh ya,my best company these daez r none other than music(cos MUSIC is my SOUL!!!yea,it rox!)n keith(OMG.it's hym agn..Must b b-cos he's sweet!LOLz jus teasin u de keith dun b shy!) cos he did it agn..he pei mi chat wen i hav difficulty slpin...till 3+ agn!its e 2nd tym.there's once whr he pei mi till 12+(actually is mi fall aslp lah!hahas!)but nt many ppl cn pei mi till so late lor..so i wanna tell hym tis...APPRECIATED!!!♥
Yes i appreciate his actions!anw i goin 2 rush finish all holidae hwrk these few daez..so if any of u out thr wan do n u nid compoany,jus tell mi!most prob is tt i'll pei u de..(: anw if wan do,i rather do @ RP library cos mi frens thr,its near n loadz better than e regional library!i tink im fallin in ♥love♥ wif RP~!!!anw mi gonna go watch tv le so dun miss mi!
Mi look 4ward 2 nxt sat cos mi goin bbq n i gonna/wanna make many fwens thr!cos nw so sian!anw if u guys goin any whr n u wan company jus let mi noe...mi will c if i hav e tym..if hav i'll say YES de!!!Ohh ya..callin 2 out 2 all those wif Mr Wu's e-mail or his contact...cn u guys pls tell mi?I nid it so i cn disscuss wif supplier n stuff...e hoodie i'll get it done asap de..wait n u'll c...nitex...bb(:
FYI: I miss all of u...gor(JK) mi very long tym neva go ur hous play le...aaron long tym no c...james 2...aiya..main ting is i miss all of u..my dearest frens n fam!do miss mi n i'll miss u 2(even more!)mi jus wan go out w/ all of u n play!anw i hav 2 b goin so bb!♥luv ya!♥
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Thursday, June 17, 2010 ' 9:05 PM Y
It's just 2 more weeks to MY B'dae!Woohoo~!!!FYI tt's 14 daez [:親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Wednesday, June 16, 2010 ' 8:19 PM Y
Hiiies!Its mi agn!Haven been posting cos Im lyk so tired n lazy...Sry!!anw i notice sometings these few daez :-mIo sux(cos my laptop cant seem 2 connect 2 it)
-rp rox!
-Keith is super sweet(cos he peii mi chat early in the mornin[3+ am] n he's rearry funny!)
-table-tennis is fun(but never play it while wearin dresses cos ur movements r restricted!)
-YCH(gorx) sweet guy,wise wordz
-hwrk is a torture
-mi keep gettin sick(if nt,headaches!)
-my mood these daez r lyk so gd(all thx 2 Keith..so Thx~!!!)
-Mi very small size(compared 2 poly students)
-Im very bored(cos it was rainin e past few daez so cnt go out..actually cn go but bad weather n im lazy)
-I love my fam!!（those gan-____)
Anw e happiest ting would b findin some1 2 chat wif mi late @ nite(tt's none other than keith)
cos most of my frens fell aslp b4 mi...he's different cos he fell aslp almost e same tym as mi or he slp l8t than mi...(: he jus doesnt slp early n he watches one-piece(fan of it) so im nt botherin hym or torturin hym!!!but seriously he's e 1st one hu pei mi from 12+ to 3+ in e mornin...hehe(we e same kind de!!!)
anw bb mi gonna go do hwrk..dun miss mi!!!giv u all virtual HUGS~!!!
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Friday, June 11, 2010 ' 6:42 AM Y
Harlos~ Its mi agn(: anw I've just finish watching e batsu game hospital..its lyk sooO long lor but its so funny..it jus keeps getting better n funnier!I seriously recommend all of u 2 watch it but it would b better 2 watch it wif a fren!but sadly,i was watchin it alone..but neva mind!I enjoyed myself n tt's wat tt is important!hehes...Anw im lyk so sian 2dae...aft i finish watchin im lyk so bored cos i gt nthin 2 do ): actually gt lah..but i lazy 2 do cos its hwrk...i mean thr nthin fun around e hous n im nt allowed 2 go out 2dae cos im sick n im under medication so my parents jus wan mi 2 stay @ home...but im bored b-cos my ma say she wan use com den i let her lor n i hav nthin fun 2 do liaO...sad...ohh ya..den my cca cher(Mdm You) called 2 ask y i neva attend cca 2dae...well its cos im sick n i've gt mc 2 cover n she said ok..but must rmb 2 tell her next tym n i will b passin her e mc on the !st dae of sku...
anw thr nthin much 2dae...serious!Ah...yes..i wen 2 take fotos 4 my ez-link card rmb?e fotos didnt turn out as wat i expected it 2 b but its @ least better than e old 1 tt was used 4 my ez-link..its lyk so ugly n ancient...anw cn any1 help mi choose which foto 2 use?cos i found 3 different fotos which cn b used 4 it..anw im so sian n gonna go off9 soon...so byes...dun miss mi but i do hope tt u will!nitex...
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
. ' 6:40 AM Y
2dae:-woke up by mum n she dragged mi out off bed n she said tt she was goin 2 bring mi out 4 breakfast of which I oni drank soup b-cos i no appetite
-shop(mi bought chocolates...yummy~!!!)
-came back rest n watch tv...(sian lor but i lazy on com till nw!)
-lunch
-blahblahblah(i 4gt wat i doin)
-took fotos 4 mi 2 make ez-link card(which i will b doin 2moro...)
-_________(dunno wat 2 do nw!)so sian..anw bb i goin watch e rest of e batsu game...
Mi promise 2 post wen i free...anw i recommend u guys 2 watch batsu game high shool n batsu game hospital..they're raerry very funny..bb~
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Thursday, June 10, 2010 ' 6:40 AM Y
Hi,its MI!!![:kay,here's e 2nd part on wednesdae..Sry:( i didn't mean 2 b late..anw here's wat happened:
-Wen 2 admiralty 2 hav lunch @ mac w/ alloy
-Wen 2 park @ 5+ (slack w/ Desmond)
-Met XQ and had a chat w/ her(OMG!She's sooO nice n fren-ly!!!)
-Keith comes 2 hav chat w/ mi n desmond...(I must say i changed my opinion abt hym...He's nt a emo kia!actually he's very fun n fren-ly!!)
-Here comes Zen n there we are playin w/ hym(actually he doesn't lyk mi ): he was "bullying" mi)
-Keith goes off home 2 take his equipment 4 playing ping-pong
-Blahblahblah(lazy 2 write..in short temporary-nannies of zen)
-Keith comes back w/ his dinner
-Wen 2 656 along w/ desmond,keith n mario
-blahblahblah(chat w/ keith n e 2 of us r lyk left out cos e 2 of us chat until damm fun den e rest laugh @ sumting n we're lyk huh?)
-Sad :( wen home..pup came 2 get mi home...
-wen 2 bathe lyk 4 2 hours(Thx guys 4 makin mi sticky especially zen so i was under e shower 4 tt long!)
-Nth much..sian..slp(actually i didnt really getta slp 4 i was lyk havin tis terrible cough tt kept mi awake)
Nw I'll tok abt thursdae(tt is 2dae!)1!!Here goes:
-Mum woke mi @ 9+ n she dragged mi out of bed 2 c e doc(sian..4gt bring fone den i hav 2 lyk wait 4 lyk 2 hours b4 i get 2 c e doc..cos there were jus 2 many ppl ): )
-took a long tym lyk 20+ mins 2 find mum
-Had lunch9sian..e food is lyk so bland!)
-pei mum shop(mi bought lots of tidbits..but i cnt eat.. yet)
-finally,i get 2 go home!(hate tt bus trip...e bus has a unbearable smell..phew~ wen i gt off e bus...i vomited 4 lyk 15+ mins...jus so unbearable ): )
-took medication n i slpt from 3-5+ (but mum woke mi up 4 no reason!)
-wash up
-dinner
-watch vid(batsu game-hospital)which was damm funny but very long(i haven quite finish!)recommended by keith..
-off com
-waatch tv
-finally slp @ 1+
so it means..NITEX....(: dun miss mi!bb!
FYI:its 3 more weeks 2 my b'dae n tt is 21 daez...dun 4get hor!
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Tuesday, June 8, 2010 ' 7:50 PM Y
Hiies.Haven been postin 4 quite a while as i was tired n sick.A lil bit abt these few daez..Mon:wen 2 sku cos hav cca(nth much)gt cough n felt even worse[e dae b4 i havin fever n flu,nw still nt fully recovered yet]
Tue:wen to giv flyers(!st tym!!!)--Fun but damm shag...gave out 1ooo+ fliers(each) along w/ melissa n wei xuan...{i still wanna go if cn!]cough gt worse): cant rearry slp @ nite w/ mi coughin lyk___(i dono hw 2 describe)
2dae:woke up w/ my back achin...I was sick(actually im still sick) so i had 2 "4sake" my initial plan 2 go n do hwrk w/ mel,kai sin n wx..wanted 2 mit up @ yishun library do den go eat sakae but under these conditions i cn oni say sry 2 em'....wat a pity!):
Ohh ya!tell u wat.on mondae desmond told mi tt keithmy poly fren in NYP) invite mi 2 his bbq party on 26 jun!well,it shd b a gd way 2 say bb 2 e jun holidaez!anw thx!!!(:
anw gotta go fone ringin!
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Sunday, June 6, 2010 ' 6:49 AM Y
Hi,its me again.My mood got a little better but my flu got worse.A little fever,a little cough now taking medication hoping that I'll be fine tomorrow.Even though I've not fully recovered from this morning,I'm pretty sure I'll be fine tomorrow.Lets all hope so.Anyway I'm going to sleep soon as I have cca tomorrow.I hope that the instructor won't scold us.Good luck!So with that I'm sleeping with much hope for a better tomorrow.Nights.親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
. ' 12:43 AM Y
After crying for 2 hours straight,I've finally stopped.I cried not because I was lonely or whatsoever but because of my miserable life.I feel that it is miserable for it has just lost its purpose in life.My purpose in life was to be my parents good little girl.However recent events made me found out that they(my parents) don't feel so.Is it due to their high yet demanding expectations or is it that I'm plain useless or should I say that I am incapable of meeting their targets?Anyway I'm feeling empty again and this time,like I said,is because of the fact that I have lost my "purpose in life". Since that's the case,I will find another purpose in life and that is to help others so I will commit myself to more voluntary work.I feel that I'm old enough and that the time is right for me to give back to society but since I'm still schooling,I can only give back through this way.I just hope that there are vacancies available.
Another reason on why my life is miserable is because I'm the middle child.Everyone must be thinking what's so bad about that?Maybe,in other families,the middle child is the one that is doted but here,in mine,the middle child is not that easy as you would think it is.I have to do a lot of chores as I'm the eldest daughter and me,being the middle child,is often neglected i would say.My grans dotes my brother the most while my aunts and uncles dotes on my sister.On the other hand,I'm the one who isn't well-liked because the older generation criticize about my attire,attitude and so.Most of the time I'm just left out.So the one who always gets scolded is none other than yours truly.
Other than the part on how miserable my life is,I also felt that I shouldn't be a burden to anyone anymore as I just feel that I have to learn to be independent.So next time,when I'm down and out or just bored,I will not bother others and I will find a solution myself.However when you guys need help,don't be shy to look for me.I will still lend you a helping hand for many others have done so when I needed it.I promise that I'll be there when you need it.
Then there was a time that I wanted to be loved but that was so yesterday.Now,I don't feel that that is important anymore.My friend once told me to open my heart out to him but every time I do so,it gets invaded causing it to be weaker and weaker to the point that I don't dare to open it again.Just today,I received a sms from a friend and he said that he'd grown to love me deeper which is sweet but now when I read it,I seem to feel indifferent about it.I don't know how long it'll take for it to open again maybe a day or two,maybe never.Lets just allow nature to take its course.So I apologize to those who might be affected by it but it can't be helped.Sorry.Now it's like Swiss cheese,covered with nothing much but holes.It might be empty but its locked tightly to me.So tight that diamond can't cut through.What I'm trying to say is that it'll take a lot of effort and time for it to be open once again.
Anyway there are 2 main reasons on why I stopped crying.It is because it hurts and the other is because I remember what my dearest gor(JK) said.He said that he like to smile and he likes it more when people around him smile and with that i stopped.I'm still trying my very best to smile as i promised my gor to smile.This means that the next time that you see me,I would be smiling like i used to be but I can't assured you that it comes from within for god has taken bits of my smile away but I will try my best to smile,from within.After this "experience" I understand better the meaning of true happiness.As the saying goes "There's no way one can feel true happiness without going through sadness" so I am beginning to learn more about this world becoming more understanding and more appreciative.
Speaking of that,I remember Ms Joyce telling me that I'm just putting up a pretence in front of my form teacher,Mrs Whelan.No,I'm not.I'm gave my very best in helping her because she never fails to praise me when I do well.The thing I like about her would be that she is one who is generous when it comes to crediting one.She won't ever forget to appreciate those who deserves it.That's why I don't give my best to my parents.It's because they rarely praise me and if they did,they would expect more so I find it hard to be praise by them,unlike my brother and sister as they get praise frequently yet effortlessly.I'm the type that likes to be praised and I'm sure everyone does.So what I'm trying to say is that one should praise another when deserved and don't be stingy about it.
Now I'll leave you a quote by yours truly(me) : "I don't have to live a life that's colourful and dazzling that everyone envies.I just have to live a life that I'm proud to say that it's My Life."
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Saturday, June 5, 2010 ' 12:06 AM Y
"Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do. That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you." - Best In Me by Blue.
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Friday, June 4, 2010 ' 7:24 AM Y
Hihi~ Its mi..Sally(: but im nt so happy 2dae): Its b-cos i hav cca early in e mornin tt means long talks n pratice n my fingers hurtS!!! TTM!(to the max)it still hurts nw but its better..better than jus nw...den its lyk my gor(JK) ask mi go his hous agn 2dae..n i could ONLY say no ): sry....didnt mean it...i swear...!!!Ohh ya..someting from ystdae : My gor(JK) wen runnin ystdae nt b-cos he moody or wat its b-cos he peii his cousin run..waah..so nice of hym lor!so @ least i noe tt he nt bad mood..tt's gd...wat a relieve 2 noe...[:
Continuin on y i bad mood...aft cca i sian n a lil bad mood liaO(cos i keep gettin scolded) den l8t wen home..nthin 2 do...even more sian... ): was happy 4 a moment cos alloy say he cn pei mi..but gt criticize abt my height wif wat research ting...
A lil bit on nw : Mi n alloy ok liaO..mi feel tt niddA say sry so wen his hous apologise n he did so 2...so seriously we ok liaO...
Nw back 2 reasons on bad mood : aft tt mi n alloy wen 4 ice-cream n sumting tt he sent made mi misunderstand but we ok liaO..its in e past...but aft tt so called "QUARREL" mi go somewhr...tt is anywhr i random go cos mood bad...den i tot of gor(JK) n i msg hym da pei mi...i tink he msg wrong cos he sent "can uhs" but l8t tell mi he outside..specifically his fren hous..so cant pei mi sad):
@ 1st i didnt noe he outside de cos my fone battery flat..WTH...den i waited @ e place i msg hym da mit mi b4 it wen flat...wait 4 alil while den decide da call..e resident thr tell mi gt pay-fone nearby n so i wen...in e end i gt cheated lyk $2+ cos it jus doesnt work..wow thx 4 makin my mood worse!!!
aft much askin around..a couple lend mi their fone but they were so suspicious of mi but @ least they lend..so aft tt mood gt better cos @ least some1 lend mi a hand...
Anw i nw noe hw much my gor means 2 mi liaO cos wen my fone no batt i oni rmb his no...so u hav a special place in my heart gor! anw nthin much 2 write liao so nitex..bb..miss u..!
Anw my mood a whole lot better liaO jus a lil sad ]: byes~
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
.Wednesday, June 2, 2010 ' 7:00 AM Y
Hiies...long tym neva post liaO..miss mi?O: Hope u did!!(: Anw thr's nt much goin on these daez..lets c...mondae wen 2 science centre--its my !st tym thr!!!cos pri sku xcursions i wuld act sick 2 skip...sad:( wont do it nxt tym!! Anw its damm fun @ e science centre..took some cool pics..will post it wen i free.... tuesdae i 4gt wat i did...wednesdae wen out 2 do e video 4 our trip 2 e science centre(learning journey--eng hwrk) wen 2 alloy hous watch batsu game high sku on youtube...its lyk sooO funny!!!Nw i'll tok abt 2dae!!!damm it hav cca 2dae:( its lyk i had 2 pushed away all dates..sAd...hmm lets c..i had a invite 2 WWW(Wild Wild Wet)from my poly fren....another 2 Escape(Theme Park) from another poly fren...a movie date from once agn another poly fren... NotE :they r NT e same ppl!
1 from my gor(JK) 2 his hous...1 from alloy( is go his hous slack) ...5 sad :(
N all i could say was NO~..sad:( i rearry wanted 2 go bUt gt cca from 9-4...haix...it was lyk long talks..train(pratice)...long talks...
anw aft tt i rush home 2 shower n so b4 goin out 2 hav dinner w/ my uncle...had it @ pastamania(: its nt bad..actually gUd!!!simply lyk dessert e best!n my mood gt a lil better..erm i mean loAdZ...!!!
Btw i tink my dear gor(JK) is havin bad mood agn cos he wen joggin n he oni does so wen he bad mood...if it rearry is hope he'll get better soON!if nt ur dear mei here will giv u a hug 2 make u fel better!or u wanna chat?im fine as long as u feel better cos u were thr 4 mi wen i nid u..(:
OMG!Its official..4 more wks 2 my..yes my B'dae~ hehe..tt's 28 daez....(:
But i quite sad sia..cos my angie mumiie n melissa jie tot tt my b'dae was on !st june:( they rmb wrong:(
Oohh ya..i hav 3 new members 2 my fam.. 1:Melissa as my jie..2:Hui Nee as my jie..3: Jun hong as my di..he's my !st di..neva had a di b4..anw post more nxt tym..nw goin 2 play?slack/surf..as in surf e net lah!anw early gud byes...nitex!miss mi hor!(:
親愛なる日記 Dear Diary,
